guess who’s done with high school?
me. aw yeah.
i kinda like you?
probably not.
I can’t believe this year is coming to an end. I can’t believe my time in Taiwan is coming to an end. Soon I’ll be off on my own in one of the most exciting cities in the world and honestly, it frightens me. These last few weeks might be the last days I’ll ever see some of my friends. Going to this school isn’t like going to any other school. Some people are only here temporarily, and will never come back. And they’ll be going off to Australia, or some random state in America, and it makes me so sad. I wonder if people will remember me and if they even care about me and if they miss me. I hated it here, a lot, but at the same time, I’m still going to be so upset with everyone leaving. I feel like I just can’t be happy with anything. I can’t believe everything’s over. It makes me incredibly depressed.
When I lost you, it felt like I lost my best friend. Now you don’t even talk to me anymore.
I let you in. You destroyed me.
Last night, during my breakdown all I wanted was to be comforted. But I made you go back to sleep because I was not in the mood to force a person to stay up and give emotional support when all they wanted to do was sleep. And every time I’d wake up to your back to me, it hurt me a little each time
come on sister | high flight society
One of the best feelings is finding a song you haven’t listened to in a long time. 2010. This song fit perfectly with the horrible events going on at the time.
today my boyfriend fell asleep and i accidentally made a noise and he immediately sat up insanely fast and then laid back down, and i was asking him what he was doing, and he said, ‘i’m burying bones’ and i kept laughing and laughing and saying his name and his eyes shot open and i knew he was really awake for sure this time and he was all mad or something and said, ‘what?!’ it was the funniest thing ever. i think it was too much runescape or something.
Why is moving on the hardest thing in the world?
i’m so sick of being left alone. i love people too easily. i should just know that people don’t care that much about me as i do with them and i don’t know why i never learn.
crazy runespan = +12 rc in 2 days
I really want to get a tattoo, maybe before I leave Taiwan. Taiwan has really changed me, not just in a good way, really, and I want a tattoo to remind myself that I still have God and I still have people who love and care about me. Change sucks to me, and I’m kind of scared about what’s going to happen when I go off to college and I’m finally completely independent… and maybe alone at times. I only want a small one, but one that’s obviously meaningful. I was thinking about having one that says 爸, which is Chinese for dad, maybe on my chest around my “heart” because of many meaningful reasons. My favourite Bible verses are also Psalm 68:5-6 and Jeremiah 29:11, but I obviously don’t want the full verse on my body so I was thinking a keyword from it or just the reference or something. Maybe the back of my neck or my wrist? Or the ying yang, which represents my relationship with my best friend/boyfriend (which may sound stupid - so let me know if it is - but he’s been my best friend for 5 years and he knows absolutely everything about me and is the only one who has been through everything with me), which would look cool on the ankle or something. I’m also really scared about how much pain I can handle LOL, so I obviously don’t want on my foot or my ribs - the ankle might hurt but I’m getting small tattoos…
Can someone please give me suggestions or advice?!?
i had such a good time with my boyfriend today. oh goodness i love him so much; i’ve never been so in love with someone before. i don’t know how but we can talk for hours and hours about anything even though we’re long distance. omg i can just tell when he’s looking at me because he has this different look on his face and omg i just love him so much. he’s such a cutie. he looks a bit like a stoner sometimes which is kind of funny because he’s probably the most innocent boy i have ever met in my entire life. awww man i love him to bits! i’m so lucky, i’m so thankful that God allowed us to meet each other.
we were complaining about how bad a girl was at acting and giving examples of horrifying situations, and then the girl was like, ‘oh yeah who was the one who was in that scene where she kept saying “farewell”?’ and i stopped laughing and i was like, ‘…um… that was me’ and there was an awkward pause and she was said in the most awkward voice, ‘………….oh’ and made it even worse by trying to make it better when she basically said she thought it was that girl we were just complaining about.
